Again.

I'm trembling, I can see it in my bloody hands.
I'm all shaking
and I can't stop.

My heart is pounding fast as the city clock.
I can hear the walls of it, kicking like in a boxing match,
begging to release.

My breath is slow.
I hug the cold blue air in the sunset to calm me down.

I try to make it go away.

I'm drowning.
Isn't there anything to save me?
Isn't it supposed to go away?
I'm gonna lose it.

I'm sinking in the black sea of self destruction
I'm underwater and I am closer to a black out.

I'm trying to swim but the water drags me in
as my golden rings pull me down
I'm slowly dying.

I lost it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNE-7DyLJ5w